Surprising Myself With My Creations

For a long time now I've not enjoyed Christmas, seeing it as an outlandishly expensive waste of energy and money, just tolerating it and wishing it was over before it even started... But this year I actually enjoyed the lead-up and the Big Day itself (purchasing my first ever Santa suit and my first ever pair of Christmas earrings)... What came over me?

I believe it had everything to do with regularly applying what Bob Scheinfeld calls "The Process" in his book 'Busting Loose From the Money Game'. Not to spoil the surprise, I won't give you the procedure here but I will say that this application is giving me a tour of how I convinced myself that I'm the opposite of who I really am and at the same time whipping away those myths so that I'm experiencing less and less limitation and more and more expansion in how I perceive myself as the creator of my experience. It's fascinating!

The element of surprise seems to be the central theme for me right now. On our Christmas holiday I surprised myself with creating a lovely little townhouse apartment (complete with food and other useful items) when there were no vacancies at any of the hotels in the town where we were staying. I created my partner Simon to surprise me with my first laptop for Christmas and my daughter to surprise me with cinema tickets, as well as the Nelson Mandela book I'd guessed she'd bought me... Our Christmas Day was surprisingly relaxed, even though there was an upset between Simon and my nephew... and I even created some surprising good news regarding an investment in a wonderful fun money game I've been playing.

Back home now for two days I've surprised myself with the discovery of a long-hidden limiting belief that if I want to enjoy myself I have to pay a price... Wow, what a discovery! Fortunately for me I have Bob Scheinfeld's process to disempower that belief and begin anew... Hmm, I wonder where next the tour is going to take me.

Happy travelling in the New Year everyone!

Belief Systems and How They Play Out

As you might remember from my last post I said that I'd come across a new way of dealing with stress.

That came about as a result of two important events... attending a pilot workshop called 'The Magician's Way Intensive', created by William Whitecloud and also reading a book called 'Busting Loose from the Money Game' by Bob Scheinfeld.

Both of these "modes" if you like suggest that we "play" on Planet Earth, home of the Human Game, to experience limitation as a way of amusing ourselves as infinite beings. A little like puppeteers we choose to create a part of ourselves into human form, fully immerse that part of our consciousness into the experience and create limiting situations and circumstances which then create belief systems and propagate a lifetime of experiences as a result of those belief systems?

For example, one of the things I learnt about myself at The Magician's Way Intensive, which I really knew all the time but was in denial about, was that I had a belief that I'm insignificant which then leads me to compensate by doing things that might be seen to be important, and yet I don't like being the centre of attention. I could make up a story about that and say "Well, that's because I had an abusive father who beat my mother and us children and I learnt that if I stayed out of his way I could protect myself... except for that one time I called the police and made my father cry for the first time".

My story illustrates what we all go through when we choose to (as unlimited infinite beings) to fully immerse a part of ourselves into the human experience. It shows how I "conned" myself into believing that I am at the mercy of circumstances and life, things outside of myself, when I'd created the whole illusion myself! How amazing is that?

Another major belief of mine has been that "men control the money".

I could say, "Well that's because my father controlled all the money when I was growing up, when I was 12 my parents separated and my mother found herself in financial destitution. She searched for another man to take my father's place who would provide for us, and then they didn't work out so she went on welfare designed and controlled by men in parliament. I then went on to work for men, had a child to a man who refused to share his money, went on welfare myself, and met a man who would share his money grudgingly and had another child to him... snapping the trap on myself so to speak, just as my daughter was beginning to become more independent and I felt I would have had more freedom to pursue my own financial independence."

My Expanded Self must have been laughing her head off at how she'd fooled me into thinking I was this limited, powerless being who had no way of getting out of this trap she'd "made up"... and yet She was the one who "created" The Magician's Way Intensive and Bob Scheinfeld's book into my reality.

It's all a game people. We all do this stuff to ourselves. If you can really get that you're at a crossroads... The most important crossroads of your life because now you have to make a choice. You can choose to deny what you know is true or you can choose to take the first step back into who you really are.

"To be or not to be." That is the question.